A lot. It's how I think, or better put, it's how I think a bit more clearly. I've done it ever since I can remember needing to relax, or work something out. I remember times grabbing my bat as a junior in high school and strolling throughout our barely constructed neighborhood trying to figure out how to get over not getting over stuff... like failure, like not hitting the ball off the wall every time I came to the plate (thank God it was sparsely populated as I'm thinking the "lost in thought" teenager roaming the streets with a 33 inch 30 ounce metal bat, at dusk, may have caught a few folks off guard). I was in the midst of my worst baseball season ever and I was obsessing about failing, failing at what I absolutely loved, playing baseball.
* Please note I've saved you all a great deal of time and aguish...right about...here..X.., as I've just erased a great deal of regressed, should only be spewed from a counselors couch, BS
Walking didn't necessarily get me hitting again..I didn't do that until my senior year, but it began to shed some light on how I tackle things. It slowed my racing head to a point where I could decipher my thoughts, it was calming. If I've discovered one thing recently it's that I need a much bigger neighborhood for my walks now.
On a recent exercise of putting one foot in front of the other I was sorting through where I was with my next adventure in life. Our little dude is here in weeks and I know he will forever change our lives, but what I don't want is for our personalities to change, or our sense of adventure, or how much my wife and I make each other laugh, or our ambition. I wan't those things to remain in tact and I want to be an incredible Dad and husband at the same time, and I want to know we/I can do this with no sleep and some adjusted priorities. Whew.. I'm exhausted just unloading this.
Where this recent stroll put me upon my return to our doorstep:
- Both Kari and I have no delusions that having kids will be easy, nothing worth doing is
- We will be very good at it, you know...parent stuff. I will just constantly look like I've recently suggested to the biggest dude at the bar that we should take a shot and then give each other wedgies and he took that as, please punch me in the face.
- That mornings, although scary looking...can be quite beautiful if you mange to get yourself out of the horizontal "I'm pretty sure I can get away with sleeping one more hour" position.
And most importantly that perspective is everything and if you have the right music playing, things will be just fine.
Similar to smelling something familiar and immediately being transported back to a past memory (most memories are in the past I hear), music is an incredibly beautiful and powerful thing. I recently re-discovered one of my favorite groups (The Roots) and it's given me a renewed perspective on things...which, I love.
-dp
* Note - The Roots are bigger than Jimmy Fallon, their not just his house band
Some recent life stuff....illustrated
Test driving the new wheels...
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